Song of the Moment: Lazarus

Well, here is another song by Fozzy that I found very fitting for the moment (I do a LOT of music listening in the car during my 1 hour commute, and these are the times where I find the songs that fit my life), as I reasses what my priorities are and what I really want out of my life.

I think this fits my life right now in several ways: 1) My faith in God has really been shaken and I do feel like my words to God just fall by the wayside, 2) as I try to lift my soul out of the darkness I have found myself in, I have so many doubts on where I want to go: still make attempts at TTC, or give it up and cherish the little boy I have, 3) once I figure out what it is I really want and, in truth, what it is I can medically have, then I might know where my path will lead.

I have sacrificed so many of my interests over the past several years, I have forgotten what those interests are now. Of course, Chris will always be my first priority - but, I need to find myself again. And the first step to that is calling my doc's office for a referral for counseling...

Lazarus
by Fozzy

A silent prayer whispered in the darkness
Without witness words descend and die
I can't understand a world so cold and heartless
And still I'm driven to live this lie

Frozen voice singing winter's song
I live through life at the will of the wind
All the while I wonder where right went wrong
Crying out for the end to begin

Set adrift on a sea uncharted
Under a sky with no stars to guide me
A drowning soul is sinking and departed
While the waves of doubt break forever inside me

I'm holding on to what I once believed
Conviction that builds with time
I breathe life into my heart deceived
Now the truth is of my design

When your truth turns to lie
And the pain makes you cry
And the fountains of faith run dry
Take a look at yourself
And what you've sacrificed

When your truth turns to lie
And the pain makes you cry
And the fountains of faith run dry

When your dream starts to die
And the fire inside
Starts to dim the more you fight
Take a look at yourself
And what you've sacrificed